journal entry follow up

I will Trust In God and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ 

I will not fear

I will not stress

I may not be in a position to change a lot of things about my circumstances.

1. I have MGUS which has a chance to turn into Blood Cancer
2. I don't have my dream job or the financial freedom that I crave
3. I don't have a lot of stamina.

It does not serve me to be angry at GOD

It does not serve me to obese w/knowing everything about MGUS and stressing over it. 

I need to know enough to be informed but I do not need to obsess.

It does not serve me to be envious of other people

It does not serve me to feel sorry for myself

It does not serve me to live for the future

It does serve me to walk in Gratitude for everything I do have!

It does serve me to accept my life as it is now and not fight again the current.

What can I do now?

1. Journaling
2. Trust in God in spite of my circumstances I can't see. I'm blind and I can't see the path that is before me but God does (this is actually #1)
3. gentle yoga
4. pranayana breathing
5. practicing gratitude
6. Trust that through God I have to strength to deal with any life circumstance. God will provide even if I cannot understand in the moment
7. Accept that I have fatigue and be kind to myself. Its okay.
8. Its okay to veg out and watch tv....its not something you need to "earn" 
9. Stop "striving"  let go of "hoping for the future"
10. sleep more
11. Drink more water